Last week I didn’t expect to gain but I did. This week I expected to gain. I’m just grateful it wasn’t more than .4. We went out to dinner to a Chinese/Japanese buffet on Saturday. I told myself not to overdo it, but I still did. There were so many different kinds of sushi I wanted to try. I don’t eat it that often, so I overindulged. I probably would have been fine if I had stopped there, but of course I didn’t.
I overdid it Sunday night too…for no apparent reason other than the fact that I felt like eating and didn’t stop myself. I know that I need to start over right away after I’ve over-indulged. And I did. I did well and tracked all day Sunday up until dinner. Then I went off course again.
I don’t understand why it is still so hard sometimes. It really makes me mad that I still struggle with eating for the wrong reasons. I really don’t even know why I was eating Sunday night. My husband even asked if I was tracking it and I told him no and ate it anyway. SIGH…..
All day on Monday it was a mental battle between what I knew I should do and what I wanted to do. I kept thinking “well since I’m already going to gain, I might as well indulge a little more and just start over after my weigh in.” That is the absolute opposite of the attitude I need to have. The majority of the time I would think that I need to do damage control and get right back to what I would normally eat, but it didn’t seem that simple the past couple days.
Today was fine and I am feeling focused on starting a new WW week tomorrow with a clean slate. But the lesson I really need to learn is that each meal is a clean slate. It does NOT matter how badly I did. I can still make the right choice the very next meal or snack. Logically I know this, but in reality it is still hard to implement.
I don’t always like talking about my struggles because I want to be motivating. However, I also feel like you need to know that you can struggle and still be successful. Too often in the past, I allowed a struggle to convince me that I couldn’t do it and I gave up. I didn’t give up this time around. It’s been a constant work in progress for the past 5 years. It is still hard sometimes and I still gain sometimes, but OVERALL I am in a much better place than where I started.
My wise WW leader reminded me this week that I need to focus on change rather than focusing on results. I’m going to TRY to stop worrying about how close I am to my goal and how quickly I can get there. Nothing will really change when I get to my goal anyway, right? I’ll still need to keep following the same habits I do every day. I will get there, but there’s no hurry. I just need to stick to the basics and let it happen.
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