Transformation Tuesday – 5 Years in the Making

In My Progress by Tanya2 Comments

It has been 5 years since I started my journey.  On September 15, 2009, I joined Weight Watchers for the last time.  Of course, it was probably my 10th time joining, if not the 20th!  I weighed in at 245.8 pounds, and I was squeezing into a size 20.  As of September 16, 2014, I weighed in at 156.2, and I am wearing a size 6 or 8.  I’m 10.4 pounds from my ultimate goal of losing 100 pounds, but I have to take a minute and reflect on how far I have come.    

Sometimes I still get frustrated with my size and appearance, and then I remember where I started.  I used to fit (barely) into these size 20 pants.  I used to dread wearing dress pants because they were so uncomfortable.  Here I am now in the size 20 pants.

Size 20

Size 20 Pants – September 2014

It is still mind boggling to me that I used to fit into those pants.  One of my legs used to be as big as BOTH of my legs now!!!  The picture below is me wearing size 6 pants.  I never DREAMED that I would ever be wearing single digit sizes.  When I started, I was just hoping to get back to a size 14!!

Size 6 Pants - September 2014

Size 6 Pants – September 2014

I lost 90 pounds in about a year and a half, but I never made it to 100.  I shifted my focus from losing on to other things, and I didn’t keep setting goals for myself as I did when I was losing.  Maintaining also turned out to be harder than expected.  I gained and lost 10 pounds a couple of times over the past 3 years.  At one point, I had even gained 20 pounds and had to buy bigger pants!!!  I fought my way back, and this time I am not stopping.  I am going to keep going to my 100 pound goal and beyond.  I am going to work on building muscle tone and losing the last of my rolls, even if they are small rolls.   😀   It’s pretty annoying to lose almost 90 pounds and still have back fat! UGH!

My point is this: DO NOT GIVE UP.  I did not set out intending or believing that I would lose this much weight.  I did not have a magic formula. I just stuck with it.  There were bad meals, bad days, and bad months, but I knew that I never wanted to go back to 245 pounds.  That girl was miserable.  I am not willing to be that girl again.

I have learned many lessons over the last 5 years.  The hardest and most recent lesson is both annoying and freeing.  I recently realized that I will never be “fixed” or “cured.”  I will always have food issues.  However, I keep learning and improving, and the issues are easier and easier to deal with.  I can manage my challenges now, and I have healthier behaviors and habits now.  I say it’s annoying because I have worked so hard, and I kept wanting it to become easy.  Then I realized that easy is what got me to 245 pounds.  When I finally stopped searching for the end or the solution, a burden was lifted off my shoulders.  I don’t have to keep searching for the end.  There is no end.  I just have to keep improving.  Things are easier every day, and they will keep getting easier.

Stay tuned for my series of posts on the Habits of a Loser, where I’ll go into more detail about all the changes I’ve made, small and large.  The most important thing is to keep going.  Take one step at a time.  Make small, sustainable changes.  Dismiss the all or nothing thinking.  Don’t give up. Don’t ever give up.  You are worth it.

Comments

  1. You continue to amaze me with your will power and tenacity! John & I are both very proud of you. You are a beautiful lady inside and out!

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