Illogical

In Struggles by Tanya0 Comments

Can anyone explain to me why bad news makes me want to eat crap food? My brother has been diagnosed with non-hodgkins follicular lymphoma. This is better than a Hodgkins lymphoma but still not good, especially since it is stage 3.

I don’t feel completely freaked out. I have had some time to adjust to the idea but today we found out the specifics. I’m a planner, so just knowing the next steps makes me feel more in control. I’m not crying or depressed at this point. Of course I am worried, but I feel hopeful. I know there is a plan in place for treatment and yet all I want to do is get a giant cheeseburger and a platter of fries.

What is wrong with me?! Why in the world do I want to eat when something is upsetting? I know logically and from prior experience that eating doesn’t fix anything. It makes me angry that I still have this urge. However, things are different now.

I WANTED to go get a cheeseburger, but I didn’t! We ate the dinner I had planned and went to the batting cages instead. THAT is a positive lifestyle change. I hate that the urges are still there, but I can resist them much more often than I used to.

What do you do when you find yourself wanting to eat for the wrong reasons?

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